Keeping It Real

Have you ever met someone, felt instantly attracted to the person, and you suppressed showing any signs of an attraction? You know what I mean – you refuse to look at the person, you adopt a nearly unreadable facial gesture, and the person thinks you have a vendetta against him or her. You spend so much time making sure the person does not know he or she has piqued your interest that you dissuade the person from showing interest in you.

You leave the person’s presence feeling like an idiot, wondering why you behaved so against your feelings. You realize that you may have cost yourself a great romance, lover or lifetime mate. You sulk at your foolishness and you wish you could relive the moments, doing things differently. You wish you had kept it real. Next time, do so. It makes the difference between treatment based on your soul’s intent and treatment based on a hidden agenda. Don’t you want to know your truth?

Find out who did not keep it real in my first novel, Ghostwriter, and how it lead to a spiral of confusion and scandals. Available in ebook and paperback, all over the web. Ask for it at Barnes & Noble and they will order it for you...

Terry Birchwood... 

Vulnerability

I am me. I am uninhibited. I am not afraid to be vulnerable.  Why fear being exposed? Some think vulnerability is the same as gullibility, but it is not the same. One can be exposed and discerning, simultaneously.  For instance, I reveal my feelings to people, in a heartbeat. If I think you are beautiful, I will tell you. If I love you, you will know it. If you make my heart smile, I will smile at you. Yet, I do not pour my feelings into people, expecting anything in return. Nor do I shower affection on everyone who pours it on me.

Now, I used to be very introverted, fueled by insecurity, oppression and crimes committed against me. With experience, and age, I came to terms with the fact my buried ‘self’ prevented people from truly knowing me. As a result, I began to realize that no one could truly like me because I was not showing me. I was afraid that showing my true self would lead to some type of embarrassment, shun, or loss. Over the years, I have realized that I have nothing to lose; I am only embarrassed, if I choose to be - and those who shun ME are best in someone else’s company.

I also used to be embarrassed to show public affection, even though now I will yell from a mountain. I have no need to hide my feelings for, or from, people. Love does not have to be a secret. I do not fear making an ass of myself or losing ties because I let the world inside.  What is meant for me will be for me. In my vulnerability, I will get to my prizes faster, attracting gifts meant for ‘me’ and not one of my characters.

As an author of erotic thrillers, I must go deep into sexual content to express believable scenarios. There is no room for reservation, conservation or hesitation. I must write as if nothing is taboo, embarrassing, or too much if I want to succeed in reaching my readers’ minds, unlocking those forbidden gates and encouraging them to relish in their deepest thoughts in a way that makes it okay.

We could all stand to open our gates a little more. We hide so much. It is one reason why we are so divided, as a nation and often feel we have nowhere to turn when we need support – an ear, shoulder, hugs, laugh, and advice – a place where we can be vulnerable. It’s cool to be me. Make it cool to be you. Let the sun and the moon shine in, and reflect them back.

Terry Birchwood

Terry Birchwood's 2nd Novel Teaser, Coming 2013

Terry Birchwood's 2nd Novel, coming 2013. Teaser:

“Ok, that was the best.”

“Kim, you say that every time we f**k. Every time can’t be the best.”

“There you go, again, telling me what can and cannot be. Each time gets better so who are you to tell me what’s best?”

“Okay. Here we go.”

“Here we go what, Chris?”

“Here we go with you starting a damned debate! Why do you always have to take everything to the extreme?”

“Excuse me. I am not the one who started this. You chose to tell me what is and is not the best.”

“Oh Lord, here we go.”

“No. Here you go. I have other things to do so you should probably get going.”

“That’s cool. You know I got plans too.”

“I bet you do.”

“You damned right, just like you.”

“Well, I won’t have to worry about making you leave since you have to leave.”

“Ha, funny. You are the best at ruining an afterglow, Kim.”

“Thanks Chris. Are you done?”

“Done with what?”

“Running your mouth.”

“Oh, it’s like that.”

“Is it?”

“F**k this. I’m out.”

I jolted up and hastily grabbed my clothes, preparing to leave.

“Wait, Chris. Don’t leave like that.”

“Like what?”

“You know, in a bad mood.”

“Hell, I didn’t arrive in a bad mood. You put me in one.”

“I know, I’m sorry.”

“Oh, really.”

“Come on, Chris. I said I am sorry. Don’t you believe me?”

Sexual Desire

“I wanted so badly to throw caution to the wind, go to her home, knock on the door, walk in, and begin a delicious tasting of each other, no words uttered. However, sense and sensibility had to stay in control.” from the novel Ghostwriter by Terry Birchwood

No matter how holy, celibate, or virgin we wish to be, most of our bodies ache for stimulation at some point in time. Many of us are sexually aroused through all of our senses: an attractive sight, a sweet-smelling scent, the sound of a voice, the taste of someone’s lips, or the touch of flesh.  Sexual desire is a dynamic need, also triggered by a well of emotions: love, lust, loneliness, insecurity, a need to conquer and on and on. 

Whatever the reason for your sexual desire, it is a natural stimulus. While I am attracted to women of diverse physical characteristics, the common draw to them is sexiness, intelligence, self-confidence, a great sense of humor, and uninhibited thinking. I know what turns me on – the mental trumps the physical, but both are important to awaken my sexual desire, fully.

Whatever arouses you, there is a time and place for everything. If we had sex with everyone who sparked our interest, we would probably sex it up for most of the day, have unimaginable venereal diseases, and be desensitized to the pleasures of sex. I say, be free to fulfill your sexual desire while you utilize sense and sensibility when choosing to indulge in the activity. There is no reason to deny your body the joy of sex; just take care of your body and make mindful decisions that are good for your soul.

Terry Birchwood

One of a Kind

Even though I use a pseudonym 'Terry Birchwood' to write erotic thrillers, I am a real person. I am a product of my parents, foremothers, forefathers and the Almighty.  I am a soup of flesh and souls.  I am reincarnation.  I am living with gifts and challenges.  I am an element of existence.  I am aware that what my eyes see is not all there is to see.  I am a 'one of a kind' architect of my design. 

Drawing from my design, I seek to make the world a better place. I believe that we accomplish more fruitful things with positive forces than we do with negative ones. Contrary to the belief of some, there's no shame in being positive. It's not vulnerability. It is the ultimate power source to affect goodwill on humanity. We must take down the rough, protective, distrusting exteriors; and we must come together to pay it forward , heal the earth, and love each other.

One of the ways that I wish to unite people is through my erotic book line. I challenge you to tear down judgment, preconceived notions, and negative thinking. Rinse your minds of what you have been conditioned to believe, and take a walk with me on the wild side of love - where humans are tested to the brink of existence. Read about what people are willing to do for love, hate and everything in between as I challenge you to examine your own motives and how they affect your actions.